Hi, I’m new.

TW: fertility (infertility)

when I was first diagnosed with my mental illness 21 years ago, I had a hard time coping. I didn’t think I would ever want to have children.

I was put on lithium 10 years ago and it changed my life. I felt stable and I’ve wanted children ever since.

I have already faced some obstacles in my

journey, and I tried to be ambivalent about it with each unsuccessful year. I had major surgery to correct my uterus in 2017 but still didnt conceive after the mandatory 6 month healing time.

I realized as I’m on the cusp of middle age that I’m not ambivalent at all. I want a child.

Anyway, I’ve started going to a fertility specialist last month and I’ve been doing loads of testing. Everything looks good so far but on Friday I learned that I’m missing a fallopian tube and the other is blocked. There was no way I could have gotten pregnant naturally in a million years.

i think I can still have IVF, but my spouse and I were previously against it for us. I don’t know if im changing my mind on that now though. I’ll be 40 soon and this is kind of a now or never situation. I hate that thought.