My partner upset me today
Hey everyone. This is very embarrassing to talk about but today my partner and i were having sex. He had known I am on my period right now and thats never really stopped us. In fact, he has made it very clear in the past that us being intimate should not be affected by my period, as long as i am ok with it. However, today we were changing positions and i had noticed there was a decent amount of blood and i immediately apologized and we started to get back to it, but he stopped us and said, "I'm sorry i cant." I apologized again, we cleaned up and i burst into tears. I cried for at least an hour, and he comforted me, cuddled me, and reassured me that everything is okay and he was sorry he upset me. I told him it was okay and I tried my best to act as normal as possible. He left my house and i tried to go on about my day as usual, but to be honest, ive been holding back tears all day, trying to distract myself from how the situation made me feel. Although my partner reassured me he is still attracted to me and isnt disgusted by me, unfortunately, that reassurance didnt make me feel any better about myself. Ive always struggled with gender and body dysphoria and i guess today just stirred up those feelings again. i feel embarrassed, ugly, and disgusted with myself. I am sorry this post is so long, just needed somewhere to put my feelings and im too insecure to talk to anyone in my personal life about it. thanks to anyone who has read this, please respond with any thoughts
@librastar29 sits beside you and hugs you tightly ❤ it's ok to be upset, if you need to cry just cry ❤ there's nothing to be embarrassed about sweetie, I'm sure your partner loves you very much. Just gotta put this down to being 'just one of those things ' I'm glad you opened up about your feelings here ❤ gives you another hug, we are all right here for you ❤
@Tinywhisper11 Thank you very much for saying that💕I think i partly struggle with it because we want to have kids one day and im a little scared for him to see me give birth one day. Or even just be vulnerable and intimate with him at all. im not sure how this will affect our intimate life. we have a great relationship and love each other very much, but now i am scared my insecurities have grown too massive
@librastar29 🙁 I understand the thought of all that is scary🙁 and I think you might need to tell him how much he upset you, I know that's hard though. Hugs you tightly ❤just give yourself some space, right now you just need some emotional support, that's what I'm here for🙂 ❤ so you want kids? That's awesome the nearest thing to heaven is a child ❤
@librastar29
You are always allowed to pull back consent when you feel uncomfortable, not in the mood or just wanting to stop. No is enough, and being on your period okay. It happens to the best of us, and I hope it gets better🤗
of course! i’m glad he stopped when he did!! i would never want him to do something he isn’t 100% on board with. i think all the blood just triggered past emotions for me. it’s just something i need to deal with as someone who bleeds😔thanks for the insight🩷
@librastar29
Please try to b kind to yourself. Periods are natural and something you have absolutely no control over it so you deserve no shame. You're partner thinks you are so sexy and so desirable the blood doesn't bother him a bit. I know our mental and emotional struggles can't always be solved by reason. But maybe it can b softened by loving yourself. I was helped by reminding me the things I did like about myself and put my focus on those things. Take care