New to 7cups & trying to Heal

I know I have a good life but since I've been a child I've dealt with self loathing, low self esteem/anxiety and depression.

I'm a closed off person because of this but due to professional choices have been able to wear different masks based on who I deal with.

Lately the depression and anxiety have worn me down and I have started to have outburats with my core family and shut down as well as feel they would be better off served without me.

Ive done typical counseling, medicing, meditation (does not work for me) and a few other things; however, am at a crossroads and am looking to try something new like 7cups to see what I can make of it and how it can help.