My dad and mom got into a fight this week and blamed me for it because I didn’t visit my grandparents repeatedly when they came to visit. They have been here for 4 days and I’ve seen them for 2. The second time my parents argued it got so bad because he broke a tv by punching it repeatedly and then when he threw it, it landed on my moms foot. I don't live with them anymore because I got married 2 years ago but I feel guilty because my sisters are there and are seeing everything. I feel like I have to constantly do what they tell me so I don’t create problems but It doesn’t feel right that I can’t choose my own actions.
I want to learn how to better communicate and set boundaries to avoid conflict.
@BlatantHonesty Actually i dont know how to feel about this, it s all new for me -english is not my first language so pplease just ignore any mistake you ll see-
It-s been more than two years now that ive been diagnosted with depression and borderline disorder, i i do have my medicatons , and lately i had a very healthy routine i finally learnt and uderstood how to deal with myself, learnt what triggered my depression or tamed it.
Bref, today i saw a broken part of a glass and i started cutting myself with it. I dont understand why, but seeing the blood actually felt good, i have no idea how to deal with this and if i should tell my psychatrist nor how to do it, and what will e the outcome of it
me and my ex were doing fwb and then he claimed he didn’t want me so I tried to move onto someone else and then he claimed he wanted me back after.. then he ended up dating my friend
I'm new to all this so I'm not sure what kind of help I'm looking for but I just don't know what to do or where to turn anymore. My situation is complicated, the man I've been with for 21 years is no longer the person I thought I knew, 6 years ago he went downhill after losing his job, he basically starting lashing out at everyone around him and when everyone else walked away basically I became enemy no 1 and everything became my fault and I'm the horrible person ruining his life and holding him back. I kept trying to help, stayed by his side no matter what then he started randomly running off on me and his children I grieved for so long the death of our love, I let him go I didn't pressure him or guilt trip him. I tried working things out tried getting him mental help multiple times tried to get him to go to therapy he refuses and says I just need to be a "good wife" and do what he expects of me and thinks that would solve all our issues. We have separated multiple times but he basically will just show back up and refuse to leave. We have 3 children together 2 are adults now and want nothing to do with him. I tell him to leave he refuses and more recently the last time I reinforced that I can't mentally handle what he does to me anymore and that I just can't be with him and would like him to leave he started choking me and told me he would murder me before letting me go. He doesn't work and never leaves my house and I just have been pretending everything is okay so as not to upset my 12 yr old son, all of my support system is 1k miles away and I've been trying to exact an escape plan but everything I get close he finds out and sabotages it by messing up my car or stealing all my money. I'm trying so hard to get away but it feels like the universe is working against me. I've mourned and grieved the loss of the person I used to love not being who they used to be over the paat few years and I'm just terrified that I'm going to end up as another statistic of death by domestic violence and I'm trying to be so careful this time so he can't put a stop to it. Also the cops are no help here, in my state if domestic violence charges are filed both parties get arrested and I just can't risk that happening as I will be forced to stay even longer and the rage he would be in from that happening I feel I would not survive bc with the way the system is here I won't be protected and he will most assuredly come after me as soon as he got the chance. I have no family here no friends to turn to for help here. I'm losing hope of ever getting myself out of this alive. Also for context he is ADHD, bipolar, OCD and I think personally he has BPD and may be showing signs of schizophrenia. I've tried having him forced into a facility before but when people come around he acts normal so they don't do anything.
@BlatantHonesty Break up 😅
@BlatantHonesty
The struggles I'm having emotionally and mentally with the relationship I'm currently in.
Got hurt pretty badly and then had to come to the realization that I have no one else in my life that I could talk to lol
