I hope I won’t be as lost anymore
I’m a new member here, I just turned 18 a few days ago and I have a lot of things to think about now. I have a dream uni in my mind, and I have a whole plan I’ve come up with. But the thing is, I do this trust myself anymore. I’ve always been hardworking and determined. That’s one thing I have always been proud of. But recently I haven’t been able to focus on anything without multitasking. I always have to have something going on in the background while I work, or I need to be absorbing information and learning every waking minute. I can’t bring myself to sit with my thoughts and process my emotions. I also have a boyfriend and have been facing issues with him. My family situation isn’t so great either. But it’s physically impossible for me to sit with my thoughts and deal with my emotions which lead to sudden bursts of emotions followed by feeling being burnt out which lasts for days, weeks even. I can’t trust myself anymore. I hardly ever complete the goals I set for myself and I’m severely doubting myself. I have big dreams which require me to go against my parents wishes and working really, really hard which I am willing to do. But I’m afraid I won’t be able to achieve my dreams because what if in reality, I’m just a lazy bum. I can’t achieve simple goals in my daily life, how will I achieve my dreams? I’m honestly just looking for advice on how to not ruin my own future and trust myself. Because I’m so tired of living like this.
@tamipp
Dear, it sounds like you are under a lot of pressure. You can't stop and think about it, or else you'll explode.
Why do you need to stop yourself from exploding? Emotions are a natural reaction, and I think sometimes pent-up emotions can make things worse.
It's clear that you're not really at a loss, that you have your own plans and ideas – it's just that at the moment it's a bit difficult, and you need to deal with external pressures.
Anyway, my dear, I'm also at a crossroads in my life. You're still young, and you can take things slowly. You have the energy and ideas to get closer to the life you want every day.
