I feel like an empty can.
Hi. I'm new here. Is this the right place to write this? I've been overthinking my relationship to people I wanna get to know more, but it happens that I made a mistake to them and was heavily criticized. I apologized to them and they said it was okay, but I heard that they were talking behind my back. And, it scares me. It's been months since it happened but I still overthink it up until now.
It becomes an unhealthy thing for me because it affected my grades significantly. All my grades dropped and I have been procrastinating ever since. I was scared that I might lose my friends if those people tell about my mistakes. I get overly cautious.
I want to fix my relationship with those people because we are on the same team and I have to work with them. But talking with them makes me feel so fake that I have to lie in order to please them. I am so scared to make the same mistake twice again.
After my grades dropped, I lied about my current performance. Now, I have been constantly feeling anxious and empty.
@purplehyaxcinth
Welcome!
It’s nice that you apologized to them. I’m sorry they acted that way afterwards though.
I get how you would feel anxious about it. I hope being here can help you find the support you need <3💜
@purplehyaxcinth hey there purple! I'm Star, an adult listener on here so unfortunately we can't connect 1-1 but we can still chat in forums ❤️
I do want you to know that having people talking behind your back, whereas different with you on your face is very difficult to deal with. I understand it feels like you need to please them at this point after making a mistake.
We all make mistakes, after all we are human but it seems as though you are facing consequences from it and you are afraid of further consequences so it puts you in an energy of fear and probably causes procrastination. It's all really scary and I really empathise with you there. I want you to know we are here for you and you've reached the right platform for help. Sending you a lot of healing and love! ❤️
