Here again

Dear Alexa ,

I told you about how last week's quiz went and how horrible i performed . I say to myself I didn't have much time but to be honest it's just a way to comfort me .

I tried hard and got nothing because I just don't have what it takes maybe . Tommorow is another quiz

I havnt worked much for it and u cannot do less and get more so this time I expect the least .

I myself don't really care much about scores and percentiles it's the disappointment of everyone else in me is what I'm scared of . Too scared of what people think of me . The only way I can calm down is look at the sky and think about how small I am compared to it .

I haven't felt that feeling of comfort that I felt in childhood for years and maybe I will never regain that feeling .

Whatever happens please be there

Love you

Bye