Family issues

It's about my parents' fight......

there's a weird tradition among my family members, when ever my father takes us out on a little trip or a picnic, he fights and stops talking to us. This has happened for a while and as we (me and my brother) left for college, this tradition kinda vanished, but only for awhile.

so yesterday, we went on a trip. everything went so well. the place, the view, the atmosphere was all so calming and beautiful until a beef started between my mother and father. we don't have a car, but we do have two bikes. i usually go with my father and my brother with my mother. with the fight that started there, my father sped ahead of them, didn't say a word on our way to home. they caught up behind us, and kept the pace. it started raining, my mother and my brother stood at a bus station for shelter. they called me and said that they stayed behind till the rain slowed down. as I conveyed this message to my father, he sped past the bus station my mother was standing, even though she signaled him to stop.

fast forward 45 mins, after reaching home, my father asked, with teary eyes, that why i didn't say anything about the calls that came from my mother. See, he does this thing where he doesn't respond to any of us when he is in a fight with any of us. he did the same thing and he completely turned the plate on me. so my mother and brother came fifteen mins later. they had hardly reached, my father started again. he was rude, very rude. he asked my mother why she didn't say where they were and why they sped past us. my mother got angry because non of it were true. she explained why she did what she did. but, my father, he cut the conversation and said that the things we do are really great and asked us to get out of his sight. now things got out of hand. my mom stormed, kept the helmet with a force on the table. my father, took that helmet and aimed at my mother to throw it on her, but threw it down instead.

fast forward today, they still haven't talked, him and I haven't talked yet and have no intention to do so ever again. I am just really worried about my mother and her marriage. this whole thing always happens, but yesterday was intense. Trigger warning:::::self - harm; and to neutralize the pain and anger I've started self - harm again. It feels like *** here......