Anger

I am a PhD and have a lot of anger and disappointment because of my supervisors. The topic was suggested by them and it was not well planned. The PhD program was for three years, then I had to find a job.

After 5 years, I thought that I was done after I wrote my thesisdraft. However, my supervisors always pull me backward and make me feel I will never graduate. The relationship has not been good since the beginning, but I could not change it because I traveled to another country, which is a long story. I am an active and hard-working person. Now, I feel helpless to myself, and I can not deal with these people. They keep lying and changing their words. I think of quitting, but my family wants me to return with the PhD. I have a lot of pressure and I do not want to lose my self esteem.

Many suggest going and talking with them, but I am not motivated to see them. I sent them an email for clarification. It was like this since the beginning, they suggested I do things related to the research without being aware of the challenges. The research is multidisciplinary, and I feel alone in this research, with a lot of uncertainty, no supportive literature, and no research community.

There are some issues with the topic and I talked to them before. When they can not help, they say it is my PhD and I should find a solution. 

My goal is to have the defense and move forward in my life.

Any advice is welcome!

Thanks