anxiety, depression, traumatic memories and flashbacks, but working through it all
Hi there,
Where to start and what to say? I suffer from anxiety, depression, and have made some mistakes in my life that have hurt relationships and made me feel shame. Also have some body image disorders I am working through. I was molested growing up and at times I think I have dealt with it but most times it floods over me and I feel I'm drowning in memories and anger. I've been to therapy but I tend to not be great at talking and not great with trust.
@Student452
Hello, I'm so sorry to hear you have been going through all of this; it sounds like you've experienced a lot of pain and hurt from people around you and you were molested as well. Trauma is hard and can naturally cause explosions of feelings of memories and anger about what happened; you don't have to feel ashamed about what happened--it wasn't your fault and these feelings that come up and struggles with anxiety and depression and even the mistakes you've made, they're a product of the things you've been through, and these things have been very difficult.
Sometimes, going to therapy doesn't always help immediately; things take time and trust also takes a lot of time and proof and evidence to yourself that the person you're confiding in is someone that you can trust. And your trust has been broken by other people in the past as well, so you wouldn't feel highly inclined to trust someone, even if it is a licensed therapist. All in all, I'm wishing you the best, and hoping for good things in your future; life can be really hard, but you also seemed to have fought really hard to make things work.