So sick of sleeplessness
Yet again, here I find myself, not even half way through the night, awake and out of bed as I'm scared of being asleep as I know it will bring on the nightmares. I'm so tired and yet wired and unable to rest, worried how I'll function tomorrow as exhausted as I feel right now.
My brain has decided all on its own to replay some events from last week (the first in a series of police interviews) and to remind me both emotionally and physically of the panic-inducing memories that are dominating my existence at the moment. I'm so sick and tired of it, unable to ground myself, do anything that gives me relief, just want to exhaust myself to fall asleep without the dreams.
Help!! I'm drowning here...
@Grits 1910 Omg I'm so sorry, I have been there and not long ago, still have trouble sleeping. It is so freakn hard to shut the tv rerun Inside your head off. It's awful. I tried writing alot in my journal but I know, ya just are jumping out of your own skin. It's pretty awful. I finally had to get meds. I was not eating or sleeping. I was in bad condition. It does get better. I'm not so raw but I have my days. Tonight I was jumping out of my skin. I tried walking and cleaning, cooking. I completely understand, but your not alone. I'm here, 7 cups is here. Remember that you are a hero...ok your a hero ...write that down. Pls reach out to me anytime.....💜 ABB
Grits, Maybe an audio book or a funny movie. Tonight I watched Legally Blonde, it always makes me laugh. Sometimes the comedy movies, shows etc. help some. It sometimes can replace that horrible rerun Inside your memory with stupid- funny -goofy , at least for a little while. 💜ABB
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I'm sorry, Grits. Those nights are the worst, and feeling exhausted when you wake up the next day is discouraging. But hang in there, you've been tremendously strong through all this and you can keep going.
I'm so sorry you feel like that. You're not alone. 💖