Learning to live instead of survive
I spent moat of my life afraid of everything. I have had severe anxiety and depression that turned into mild ptsd after my dad molested me, i was raped twice, used for 3 years as a "pet" to a very abusive man, and molested at work on several different occasions all by the time i was 20. My mom suffered from depression so badly that she could barely take care of herself, none the less me, and by the time i was 16 i had turned to narcotics and cocaine to ease some of the pain that was my life. I am now 6 months clean from everything exccept weed (without it i cant sleep or eat and its better than being given more drugs) and am i. A healthy relationship for the first time in my life! though i still have bad days i am finally starting to realize that life is something to be enjoyed, not just tolerated.
I have survived the past 20 years. I will live forever from now on. By doing whatever that makes my heart pump.
If only someone could understand everything I have to go through :( I'm so alone right now it sucks anxiety and depression has really taken over my life
@Peaceanndlovee
I'm so sorry you have to feel this way. I know it sucks and I'm struggling too. I'd love to know how to get through it when I feel like nothing will help
@Peaceanndlovee
Sorry to hear that Peaceandlove, must be really difficult for you...I just want you to know you are never alone. You are surrounded by love and wonderful people here. You are important to me. I am here for you. I will support you.