Family gathering

These things are difficult for me. My abuser is often at these events. See my abuse was in childhood, he's my cousin only a few years older, and it's widely believed by my family that it was just him 'experimenting' so I have not tried to tell them the monster he truly is. He hasn't harmed my since I was 10, I'm 27 now but he plays head games that no one else can understand. Sometimes he even hugs me. I know it's cowardly to keep coming I should just cut them off but I just am not that strong. Hell some days getting up is a challenge. Anyway I'm actually at a family thing now, he's not here yet but is supposed to be soon. Thanks for listening.