Does anyone else get episodes like this?
I know that repulsion of sex and hypersexualization are both responses to abuse, but does anyone else have episodes when they experience both at the same time? Like I feel like I want to invite all sexual interaction but at the same time I am disgusted and horrified and I often get flashbacks during this. It feels like I’m desperate to convince myself that I am worthy of love but at the same time I’m putting myself through this because I deserve it??? Just wondering if anyone has had a similar experience
I feel similar to this often. I want to be intimate and sex crazed with my husband but at the same time I dont want to do anything sexual at all ever. Anytime he touches me my first thought is a flashback not a loving touch from my husband. I feel like I could go the rest of my life without it and be perfectly fine but I also want to share in the experience with him.
This is how I feel too, its made it impossible for me to be intimate with anyone and whenever i do anything like even simple stuff like just lay in bed with someone I have a flashback, it's exhausting but it's pretty hard to sleep after re experiencing something like that
Yeah I feel that when I think of my abuse. I get really really horny but at the same time disgusted.
This is definitely me 😔
Yep!!!
I'm going thru this now. I tried to be with someone recently, but he kinda lost interest half way thru. Ive spent the last week trying to figure out what i did wrong. Ive overeaten to the point that im sick. Cry every day to an empty room that im sorry. Punch and scratch myself when i have flashbacks. I'm disgusted with myself but i don't want to be alone anymore.
