Child Molestation - Reality or not
So lately this has really been bothering me... I've never talked about with anyone before... but every one in a while I'll get these visions of my old baby sitters 30 yr old on top of me tickling me... and I know this sounds weird... but I can't tell if it happened or not... im think it did... but maybe it was just a dream... i don't know... as ive been thining about it increasinly lately i remember him pulling up my shirt... but then again i dont know.. thats all i "remember" if it is in actuality a dream.... sometimes I cry about it... it stresses me out to talk about it... or to even think about it... so i feel like maybe thats an indictator... but then i think about it and it sounds insane... wouldn't i remember that clearly and be 100 percent sure... i was 4 or 5 btw... anyway one time it was really bothering me and I felt like I had to get it off my chest so I tried to tell my mom that but I chickened out... i was so overwhelmed and frightened... i would just like so clarity... and maybe someone to tell me that I'm crazy and it's all a bad dream
Sorry for the lack of grammar/spelling errors xP
I'm sorry I can't help you. :/ I am in the same situation that you. The past stories are blurred and I hope they are false, but I know they could explain a lot of things I struggle with.
Maybe you can try to talk with a psychologist.
When I turned 22 I started having recurring dreams of being about 5 years old, and locked in a room with a young man that I couldn't recognize. He did things to me while I just sat there frozen & confused. The dream came at least once a week. Finally, after a year of having the dream on and off, I mentioned it to my mom. She looked sad, and proceeded to tell me that this person had in fact molested me all those years ago. I told them about it when it happened. They believed me, confronted his family, and agreed not to pursue it as he wasn't 18 yet. But she said I didnt seem traumatized at all, so they chose to let me repress it. So yes, sometimes your mind is trying to tell you something.... I would just ask your parents if they ever got any bad vibes off the babysitters. Good luck.
@sylviaplathora88 thank you so much for your advice! I want to ask; I don't want to have this anxiety about it anymore. I'm just not sure how I'll go about asking.
