Am I wrong for not talking about it?

Hi, I'm new here.



I was sexually abused and raped from age ffive to fifteen, both in my own house and at my parents church. It was a parishioner and a close friend of my parents.



I tried my best to suppress it and repress it for ten years, it almost worked. I was able to forget when and where, but not who or that it happened. About six years ago, something my at-the-time boyfriend/friend said something that triggered a memory about all of it. I tried not to think about it, especially after he broke up with me a week later. We've remained friends all these years, his idea, and recently a lot of drama happened between him and me. He again said something that triggered the memories and I've remembered something "new" everyday since, we aren't talking anymore and I won't talk about it to anyone else, but my family think I should. I can't bring myself to tell anyone else about it. It's not necessarily the judgement that I'm afraid of, it's the constant need to come up with times and dates to verify my side. In my experience, family, they don't know how to sit and listen. 



Any advice?