Addicted to being triggered?
Lately I haven't been in therapy so I haven't talked about my SA in a very long time. It's on my mind more often as a result I believe. Sometimes I go online and read other people's stories and its extremely triggering. It brings me back and reminds me of all the details I wish I didn't remember. But then I scroll and read another. Next thing I know I've read a whole bunch and have to force myself to stop reading. Does anyone else get like this? Or understand what that may be about? I wanna help myself the best way I can until I find a new therapist.
Oh thank god i thought i was alone in this. Yes i do that alot, ive listened to all kinds of SA ted talks, and all kinds of stories online, it does trigger me but it feels less shitty knowing ur not alone in this
Why do we do this? I used to think it was trying to understand. Now I think being triggered is somehow addictive. I'm used to being hypervigilant and this sets me off. Is this why?