co parent trauma

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medium read - plz breathe 😮‍💨

breathing deeply as I type this since the tears have been pouring out while writing out my thoughts before coming on here. Being in co-parent relationship is rough as heck. My whole mindset is doing my best when the other parent is half way available.

When I am super communicating, on full detail with activities, and the simple things. Then he wants to flirt with me which is crossing my boundaries. I am not going back to a manipulator who I am still working out of my system. It is highly uncomfortable when he crosses lines thinking it is alright.

When I place my boundaries and go back to full time mommy/mt/business owner/everything else under the universe. When I have a moment and am not on my game. I get torn into shreds with words and have to remind him of his tone.

Which he does not think he is being rude and talks down to me and when I correct him. He switches the whole script. He thinks he does nor need to be fully detailed with me since we are no longer together as a couple.

Being a co-parent is not enough. I am not here for his ego boost, guilt trips, negative talks, or condescending elongated sentences deeming me as a bad parent. I have not cried angry tears in months and now tonight was not a good feeling. Those memories come back being under his dark control. This type of pain you can not fully describe it hurts to the core.

We can always do better as parents it is not easy yet we have to get on the right page with no emotions attached. Let's just be parents and continue to learn along way.