When was the last time you thought you would make it through this ?
When was the last time you felt you would make it out ? My therapist asked me today . I didn't have a specific answer. The memories of such occasions were very clear . However they seemed miles away from where I stood. Like a distant memory of someone who passed away.
What a futile attempt it is to to wish of life would have been a little less injust. Yet , i wished it would be . How different I would have been if it could become true...
I immediately stopped . I felt like someone shoved their hand in my torso and started stroking my organs while a therapist sits there observing and then asks me, "now, how does that make you feel?". Deep down I do believe it's worth it . I tell myself - this too shall pass . I wouldn't be able to look back and smile at my accomplishments but I know I will be damn proud of it
@Perfectlyimperfect87464,
God it hurts to read these words . Therapy felt the same for me too . now I know it's worth it . Try not to doubt that . And yeah life's unfair. I too crave it to be anything different. But it isn't. None of us here may able to look back and laugh at our struggle . We may not be able to look back and smile at our accomplishments. But all of us will one day take pride in it for sure. I know, we didn't ask for such an opportunity to feel proud. But it's here, so we might as well take it . It's okay if can't look back right now. We can get their eventually. Things are tough, but we can also try our best to be tough. Please know that you are not alone in this. As long as you allow me , we are togather in it. NOT ALONE .
Your post made me so moved and encouraged. THANK YOU!
Some days (can feel like years even) are so bleak. I tell myself that I survived my childhood, so at least I know it will never be like that again. Adulthood is hard, painful and overwhelming, but at least for me, I made it out of childhood. That was not a guarantee by any means. I'm so sorry it feels like there's no clear out right now. Even just responding in this moment, I recognize how often I felt hopeless too, so I guess the best I can offer is that you are not alone and that at least naming and acknowledging your reality to others matters. Sending peace and compassion.
I am in the same process and I also struggle when I can be healed and be free, and I am also seeking for an answer. However, at least we can support each other here and I am sending you a lot of energy of love ❤️