Thanks for coming in ,I have nothing worth while to share though.

If you are a do gooder here for a charity purposes , don't come around.

Don't take it to heart, you are a wonderful person. But I don't want to be fixed anymore. I just want to love atleast some of my broken bits. And I need someone who knows how real struggles can be. It's okay if they have scars from a different battle than mine. But people like us will know how to  mourn and joke about our fun life at right moments  and never say words like "I am sorry you had to go through such  a terrible experience' . Those are really kind words, But also a brutal reminder about how fucked up my life is than the "normal"

Long story short ( this is bad )

I grew up with parents who thought it was cool to SA  their kids (yeah , what  the actual fuck? I understand, you can go if you want ) . And the fun part ? The sick sick part of me enjoyed all the pleasure very well . Well atleast until I knew what was happening. Then it was a roller coaster ride. Shame , defence , abuse ,self harm , drugs )

(You have my respect if you read it till here ) How am I now? , better than the worst . I am safe from them. I go to therapy . It's hopeful. But I would like to talk to someone who knows how real the struggle is. It's indeed soo good of all listners, who don't share any of this experience to come here and be there for people like me. I adore you people. But I  am sorry if I am sounding rude , but I need someone who will know what it's like to be haunted down by memorie.  Just to talk (I don't do it offline, why ? Because I am a freak who gets panick attack when someone taps me on my shoulder)