Running within myself again

This is my first post in this community, thought I'd been here for a long time. Hmm I'm not sure if this is the right section.

I've been struggling for quite a while now, I've been seeking therapy and reaching out. But nothing seems to be helping I seem to be retreating even further into myself.

Every time I'm in a social situation, or rather highly stressful situations, I'm disconnecting to the point where I can't hear or understand what people are saying to me, and it appears to them I'm unable to hear what they are saying but , honestly I can't seem to make sense of what is being said. And usually some do my family or close friends loose their patience with me. Sorry if my being over the top. But it's been getting to be v badly, my vision kinda of blurs and all I can think of is, how fast can I run away from this stressful place situation.

At the same time I desperately need the support, I'm too scared to say anything. At times I feel I'm just existing but I so want to break out and live.