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Ongoing Trauma

HumourousPlum October 1st, 2020

Hi,

I'm new and am currently living in what can only be described as a waking nightmare. My whole world has been turned upside down in the blink of an eye and I'm not quite out the other side yet.

I have been trying to access support out in the world but I am being turned away due to red-tape and it's crushing my trust in these organisations.

I'm feeling betrayed and am just trying to keep it together so that I can move through to the other side.

I get the impression that most people are here due to a past trauma and the ongoing effecfs of it and I'm worried that for that reason, I might not fit in here but I don't know where else to go.

I'm still on this roller coaster and don't really know what to expect when it comes to an end and what my life will be like then. I can't make any plans for the future or look forward to anything. I know this experience is going to affect me for years to come and I have changed so much already.

I don't know what I'm asking for really.

Sorry if it's felt I don't belong.

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Kimmkimm October 1st, 2020

@humorousPlum7786

Hello. I'm sorry you had to pass through that. I can relate, having your life changed in the blink if an eye is traumatic and really hard to live with. And yes, many people are in here because of trauma and other things, and that's precisely why you fit here. I felt the same when I came here, but I found that some people in here (now my friends) have lived similar situations and it helps to understand and to accept what has happened and keep going.

At the begining it will be hard, but you'll think of this place as a safe home soon and you'll get to trust and, most importantly, to accept yourself. I really hope you can find the help and support you need. I'm happy you're here.

PuggyBearJade October 2nd, 2020

@HumourousPlum

Hi,

I'm so sorry you are going through this and the fact that you have tried reaching out numerous times to different organisations and felt turned away, is heartbreaking. This should never happen and will not happen here. You belong here just as much as any other member and your feelings and what you are going through is valid. We are here for you, we wont turn you away, You say you can't look to the future, take each day as it comes, small baby steps. You are strong just by reaching out here after already suffering rejection, you are strong for writing this post and sharing your feelings, thoughts and experiences. We are here for you :) You can do this

nexthurricane October 15th, 2020

I am in the same boat, harder I try to be heard, the farther away goes my resolution. And the more unstable I appear. I can see that the end is right around the corner, but theres no other way to get there than to further compound my trauma. No one can help me the way I need it because no one understands. So I am forced to live through this hell, I mean its HELL, and see it through. This trauma is affecting my children and I. When I finally get there I intend to make my story known. Hopefully people will understand then. My story could have been prevented.

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October 29th, 2020

@nexthurricane

I am so sorry that you are going through this and it seems like help is unavailable and no one is really listening to you is a terrible situation and experience. You will be supported in this community, Just keep hanging in and posting.heart

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