I’m tired so tired
TW - animal abuse (added Feb 8, 2023)
My mom has since let go of herself.. she didn’t tell her reasoning but she said it’s because my brother and me ( him abusing me and my other sisters ) since then she has adopted cats.. well not adopted but yeah. She lets many cats breed and have babies in my room, all over the house, the couch. I’m so tired. Because I’m remorseful and believe they shouldn’t be thrown outside because she is being irresponsible she has decided to make me care for them when it’s her responsibility and not mine. I’m tired. The couch smells, poop and pee everywhere because of all the animals and I have had more than 30+ cats. I’m so tired. It’s a never ending cycle and it won’t stop. We have about 5 dogs as well and they contribute. About 2-4 cats have died and I’m tired. She has made me bury them and throw them out and it’s draining me so much because I actually care for them. It’s so sad I’m so sad. Even the big cat has died. She dumps so much bleach on the floor and chemicals for the pee and it makes me sick and like I can’t breathe.
she doesn’t even deserve empathy or sympathy whstever because she doesn’t actually care about the situations. I’m tired of her I just want to leave.
@FishPhos21 Hey, that's really awful. Your living situation is actually really dangerous. Please reach out for help beyond what we can do here.
The animals do not just need to be tossed out onto the street, organizations can help, if you have a local SPCA they would be a great place to get the process rolling.
Personally I am more concerned about you than the animals though. Please, reach out to a trusted adult. A teacher, a coach, a counsellor, someone at a child crisis line, etc. Whoever you talk to can then also help make the contact about the animals. Your mother sounds really sick to the point where she is dysfunctional and intervention is needed for her, you and the animals.
Thank you for the support .. it means so much!
@FishPhos21 I really hope things improve soon! And yes, the animal urine in that amount is harmful to be inhaling not to mention the bacteria from waste before the bleach kills it. And then bleach reacts with things like urine and is harmful to be around in large amounts. The situation is abuse due to neglect and harmful living conditions 😢 Having that many animals in 1 building in a healthy way takes a ton of work plus is expensive to do. It doesn't sound like your mother is purposely causing harm, she's unwell.
My mom is purposefully causing me harm, and my siblings ( not that I care abt them too much ) she tells us to throw the cats out because she can’t face it and don’t wanna do it because it’ll hurt her— she doesn’t even think about my feelings. I love these cats. I’m tired I am I honestly getting s***dal thoughts because my life is so stressful and I’m trying to be positive and try and lead a normal life but I can’t with her and this environment I am in.
My mom has been taking care of them as of recently but I still feed them because she forgets and doesn’t feel like it… it’s so annoying to wake up to poop and pee and smelling bleach. She pours so much. I actually didn’t think alot about the situation to be “ abusive “ because this has been occurring since 2021! It’s so normalized i don’t know what to do.. I hope the animals will be okay I’m really sick rn and I inhale a lot of bleach daily and I think one of the big animals died because of bleach and another was very sick because chemicals spilled on him.
