I have started binge eating again
I have been through alot in recent past in 2023. The trauma though past and still follows me in my mind. I have recovered alot past year in 2024 but again same mind state is coming back.
I used to be obese due to stress eating. Lost weight voluntarily for health reasons and good signs were that I had stopped stress eating. But now suddenly I have started binge eating and downside is that doesn't take away the stress. I am just gaining weight simply. I want to control myself but I am helpless.
My mind is just playing tricks on me and it becomes heavy with thoughts. My breathing increases and I can't help it.
Overthinking has taken a permanent place in my life and focus on productive things have gone.
It is like I know what work should be done but I procrastinate and things go pending.
I thought to not take stress further and distant myself from stress giving things to focus on being productive but I guess I just procrastinate now.
I don't know what I want.. so much mind blurr is there
@FaithMonk9473
hey there💜 i can relate to this a lot on some level.. im proud of you for manging to recover from it to a fair extent before and i know it can feel really helpless when you see the signs of the same mindset coming back.. it can feel like you are falling into a familiar rabbit hole
Please remember that recovery isnt a linear process, its normal to feel like you are backtracking specially in stressful situations and rough times
im glad to know you’ve been trying to remove yourself from more stressful situations
do you think there is something else that can give you the comfort you try to seek in food usually? Something that could give you positive feelings and distractions?
i sometimes try reading as it is one of my biggest hobbies for example, it can be any hobby or activity that can busy your mind or distract you for a while, maybe taking a walk or listening to music, playing with a pet, etc
as of the procrastination, sometimes finding an accountability partner or setting rewards for doing X amount of something by Y amount of time can help, you can also try to gamify your tasks “aka: i’ll be counting to 200 while clearing up the breakfast table and see if i can finish it before reaching 200, or if i can finish studying this one page before this song ends” and stuff like that
i look forward to hearing more from you and im proud of you for trying to overcome this again and for reaching out and talking about it too!
