I feel like I am giving up hope (TW violence and
I have a boyfriend that is in boot camp right now and I have a history of trauma from having an abusive military father. My boyfriend before he reported to boot camp is such a sweetheart and incredibly loving but passionate about his dream to be in the marine. I was sending him encouraging letters until I received a letter from him saying that his drill instructor forced the other recruits to beat him up, he says that it has gotten so bad that the Navy medical personnel have to intervene. I can't help but feel scared for his safety and I never wanted him to get this hurt, he said he is "doing it for us" but I do not want him to go through *** for us. I regret letting him go and I just don't feel the same. I still support him no matter what but I am afraid of him coming back.