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had never expect myself falling in the same boat again ,

had let go my 9 years relationship with a married man , it left me so much hurt & misery all these while i had NO evil intention to break his family apart .

now i had fallen in with another married man , i don't know whether he knows it or not its one sided of myself i'm so 😨 to lose him i truly just want to treat him as a FRIEND not more than a FRIEND . i respect him for his occupation & who is he , because i knew if i were to pursue on there won't be any 😄 ending i don't want to get hurt again .

help me to understand "Him" , Jesus i knew its wrong but i can't help myself catching the memories i went to "Him" .