Why am I not releived?
He broke up with me today after beating the crap out of me 2 weeks ago. And after years of emotional abuse. Why am I even sad about this? I don't understand how there is even a part of me that doesn't want him to leave. He has been terrible and I've been terrible back. Yet for some reason I'm still sitting here crying because I don't want to lose him. None of this makes sense
@Rhaena
Hey. Welcome and sorry to hear that you are upset and trying to make sense of the situation you find yourself in.
Why am I even sad about this? - could it be that there is a change coming in your life and at the moment you can;t see how things are going to work out? Or you just don;t have a plan as to what to do next? Most people don't like change, they would rather hang on to the way thongs are, rather than change them. And I don;t know if this applies to you but with emotional abuse it can generally wear a person down so in the end they are left with little of no self-esteem. No self-confidence that they can cope on their own without their abuser.
I don't want to lose him. - only you can be responsible for that one. Is that what you really think? Or is it for reasons I outlined above?
I am listener here so if you think it would help you please feel free to message me or reply to this whichever you are most comfortable with.
Take care
paul