Why?
Why must I act like everything is okay ? Why must I have to live with him everyday? Why do I have put on a smile everyday when I dont wanna smile? Just to give everyone that satisfaction? Just because they dont wanna actually ask what's wrong and help me get the help I need.... There are people with worse traumatic experiences than me, and I feel for them....I wish I could reach out and give everyone a hug. But just because I'm not going through it all now....doesnt mean i still dont sleep at night bc I dont wanna dream about hearing him scream at me and yet again yell at me that I'm nothing. Nothing. So I ask again why ? Why must I have to see him everyday
@deppressednoone6
Thanks for sharing !
It takes a lot of courage to do that !
I am very sorry for all you are going through.
The short answer is that you don't.
You are the sole master of your life.
If you feel too dependent on him, reinforce your support group of family, friends and communities like this one.
I would suggest also that you find a good therapist through trusted sources, like your doctor, friends, or a post-graduate psychology institution in your area, and start doing Therapy.
All of these will make you more supported and stronger to make the tough decisions you might need to make.
I hope this helps a bit.
Come back to me at any time by replying to this post.
Keep participating in this Community !
I wish you all the best,
Marcelo.
