Why I joined 7 cups . (Trigger , I talk about sexual assault/ rape)
*Trigger *(Before I start I'm going to be talking a video I saw that involes a child sexual abuse.) Hey my name is Xitlalic ! I barely joined 7 cups about two days ago the reason I joined 7 cups was because I've been recently having a lot of repressive thoughts and anxiety. The thoughts I have are mostly about rape and sexual assault, the thoughts could be about me or even my family or friends close to me. I've never been raped but there have been times boys I have touched without my consent. I think the reason I'm having these horrible thoughts are because i was on YouTube one day and I decided to click on a video of this YouTuber reacting to a movie. I can't remember the title of the movie but basically son ends up abusing his father . It was very disturbing to me when I saw it , and the thing is I didn't even watch the whole thing. When I saw that video it was about 4 months ago and I remember for 2 days I couldn't get it out of my head but after that I was completely fine . And the other day while I was on Snapchat , I saw a dude post a video of a man masturbating infront kids . Apparently he posted it to " spread awareness ". I didn't watch the whole video obviously but I caught a glismpe of it. I don't know if those events are results of my thoughts but I need advice. I don't know I'm traumatized or anything. the thoughts also started when this quarantine stuff has happened too. But I don't get them as much anymore .
Hi, @ceelale! In times of stress, like the quarantine, it's normal for our anxieties to get worse. It's difficult to control your thoughts at these times. It's also normal to feel worried and disturbed by...worrying and disturbing things. That's a natural reaction to things like sexual abuse. Since you've had these thoughts, have you been watching more disturbing content?
Hello @ZeppelinsOverhead ! Yeah I agree my thoughts are just all over the place and But I am feeling better and no , I have not watched anything else disturbing. I've actually started to go less on social media and just do other activities. I also recently got a therapist too
@ZeppelinsOverhead also when I get the thoughts , I can get really frustrated and emotional. when I had first started getting the thoughts I kept telling me myself that I was a bad , twisted person since I kept having the thoughts and I really didn't know what to do. That's why I'm even scared to go on social media sometimes bc im scared I'll see something else , so yeah no I don't watch anything disturbing But I am doing better but I can still get them once in a while
@ceelale Talking to a professional can be very helpful. You are not a bad person for thinking about this, especially because you find it so repulsive. I'd be more worried if you were enjoying these thoughts, you know? There's always some internet content out there that will drive us a little mad. What's something you watch that makes you feel peaceful or happy? ^-^
@ZeppelinsOverhead yeah and I have realized now that I am a good person and I shouldn't be worrying anymore you know ? Also I haven't been having the thoughts as much and when I do they tend to go away now :) and I like to go on YouTube , I'm more careful now on what I click or what I see , and i like watching Netflix too and watching any type of comedy movie !
