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ceelale
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PathStep 45 Compassion hearts1,269 Forum posts77 Forum upvotes39 Current upvotes39 Age GroupAdult Last activeJanuary, 2022 Member sinceApril 4, 2020
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call me cee
any pronouns
hope we can be friends.
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Relationship Stress / by ceelale
Last post
 April 15th, 2020
...See more hey everyone , around 6, 7 months ago ? I broke up with this dude. We dated over the summer but around September he broke up with me, saying he wasnt ready for a long term relationship. Which I get and I was understanding about it. But after the break up I was just so heartbroken, I was always in bed , crying myself to sleep , having no motivation, stopped caring about maintaining myself and I was just a emotional mess. It was weird for me though because it was the first time I genuinely cried over a boy. I would also beat myself up about it since Im so young , Im 14 and I dont think a breakup could of affected me so much at this age. I guess I just got really attached , hes just one of the most caring people Ive ever met. but even after we broke up once in a while he would text me and say how much he missed me and that he still liked me and we would make plans and hook up basically. After we hooked up though he would ghost me for a two weeks or more and then once again text me and the same thing would jus happen again:/ the last time that happened was like a month ago, he called me one night and started sweet talking to me and saying how he wanted to hang out. We actually did just hang out and it was sweet we just walked around by neighbored after school and talked and just hang out you know :) when we both had to leave though we hugged and kissed though , at the moment I was really happy to able to hang out with him and being able to kiss him but once I got him I already knew he would ghost me and not text me as much anymore and guess what ? That happened. I just dont know how to feel about him :/
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Anxiety Support / by ceelale
Last post
 April 9th, 2020
...See more Today and yesterday I've been having some dark thoughts, I would rather not say them out loud but they can be bad. Most of the time there about me or my family. I start to worry and stress out because I keep beating myself up , I start to tell myself I'm horrible person for thinking such things and why would I even think of that. My therapist told me it's just my anxiety and how I should not dwell on my thoughts and let them go and how when I get those thoughts I should do something productive . Which I have been doing and it works . About 3 weeks ago too I kept having dark thoughts too but I couldn't cope and I was struggling. As of now I'm doing better. Sometimes it's hard though and I start to get depressed. I know I'm doing better but it's still hard sometimes.
Something new for me .
Anxiety Support / by ceelale
Last post
 April 8th, 2020
...See more I was the type of person who was bold and never get anxiety or anxious, of course I would get nervous sometimes but I would manage to calm myself down . These couple of past months though , I've been feeling more anxious I guess ? Especially in school sometimes and it's really weird for me . There's also stuff that has happened to me that could be the reason I'm more anxious. I've even had anxiety attacks now and it's just all weird for me , I am at the age though where I'm going through puberty but it's just really weird for me and almost even frustrating . I hate when I start to feel anxiety and I just want to feel like my normal self again.
Why I joined 7 cups . (Trigger , I talk about sexual assault/ rape)
Trauma Support / by ceelale
Last post
 April 6th, 2020
...See more *Trigger *(Before I start I'm going to be talking a video I saw that involes a child sexual abuse.) Hey my name is Xitlalic ! I barely joined 7 cups about two days ago the reason I joined 7 cups was because I've been recently having a lot of repressive thoughts and anxiety. The thoughts I have are mostly about rape and sexual assault, the thoughts could be about me or even my family or friends close to me. I've never been raped but there have been times boys I have touched without my consent. I think the reason I'm having these horrible thoughts are because i was on YouTube one day and I decided to click on a video of this YouTuber reacting to a movie. I can't remember the title of the movie but basically son ends up abusing his father . It was very disturbing to me when I saw it , and the thing is I didn't even watch the whole thing. When I saw that video it was about 4 months ago and I remember for 2 days I couldn't get it out of my head but after that I was completely fine . And the other day while I was on Snapchat , I saw a dude post a video of a man masturbating infront kids . Apparently he posted it to " spread awareness ". I didn't watch the whole video obviously but I caught a glismpe of it. I don't know if those events are results of my thoughts but I need advice. I don't know I'm traumatized or anything. the thoughts also started when this quarantine stuff has happened too. But I don't get them as much anymore .
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