Sharing my story tw: abortion

I'm a 19 year old girl who suffers from depression and trauma ever since a young age. I won't go into detail because right now there is something specific on my mind. Yesterday I had an abortion. I got pregnant by accident, cried and contemplated about what to do until the very last day. I thought I was gonna be relieved once it's all done but when I got there the clinic was really sketchy. They gave me a medicament and I had every symptom of it way worse than it should've been. They brought me into a room with three other girls in beds and while I layed there with the worst physical pain that I had EVER felt in my life there was a girl next to me talking about her child that was just aborted and how she already named it. Then the girl on the other side of me was brought into the operation room that was RIGHT NEXT to the room that we all layed in so I heard everything that was happening in the operation room. After she was done I saw that she had blood on her leg and on her sock. I was next and I couldn't stop shaking and everything was so bad and they had to keep me way longer than anyone else because of how sick I got and how I had the worst symptoms. A lot of sketchy and traumatizing things happened yesterday and I was trying to be really short so I couldn't tell you guys everything. I can't sleep and I haven't been this bad in a long time. Please don't judge me for my decision it was the hardest I ever had to make. I feel extremely traumatized and I have no friends.