Rapist, this is for you
*heya, 13 yo survivor here, I'm going to be speaking about my rape, so please know there is a trigger warning. much love*
I wish in a way, that you had stayed
Maybe just a bit longer, until I woke up from the drugs
Because if you had stayed you'd be in jail ever since that day
But you didn't, you just ran away
I remember waking up for the first time after you slammed my back against the tree
After the deed was complete, and you were no longer next to me
I felt the pain running through my legs and in my core
I couldn't move, you made my body sore.
Before I passed out once again
I broke through the ziptie with a spare pen
When I woke up next, my phone was ringing
It was my best friend, they reported me missing.
I hung up and called 911
And I dragged myself up the hill, too weak, leaving my button up undone
I had lost the most of my will to live by the time the rape kit was done
They drove me home, where I stayed alone
For a month of darkness and sleeping too much
Then, two hundred forty three days later, a letter on my door
The photographs they took, all the bruises and the sores
I panicked, threw them on the floor
My fist left a bloodstain on the door
To my rapist, what was this for?
Because although my body has healed, my heart is still sore
(comment thoughts..)
@ashes04
I just wanted to say hello and that I am so sorry for your experience, my pm's are always open, I am a female ATL (adult teen listener) if ever you want to chat. I would like to also send you a soft warm hug and sit with you through the darkness till the light returns.
Beautifully written, well done, that was very brave to share, poetry seems a good outlet for your emotions, every word is full of anquish and pain and sorrow and that transmits to the reader, so we can feel with you.