Raped and need someone...

Hey there Maddy,

I'd be honored to talk with you about what you're feeling. Send me a message?

hey maddy :)

i'm Jade, I was sexually abused, raped, gangraped and tortured and prostituted. I know how much this pain hurts, I was left with PTSD and DID, depersonalization etc. If you want to explain more in m over how you feel, we can get through this together, that I promise <3

hey love, i'm sorry that you experienced this :( i am a survivor of sexual violence as well. my assault was almost 2 years ago. it's been difficult but i'm recovering. it all takes time. i would love to talk with you if you wish to share your story and further chat about how you feel and furthermore. since you're not 18 yet, let me see if i can message you. take care love.

ah dang so i see i cant message you.. hm well if you wish you can reply to me here and we can talk a bit! the most important thing is that you take care of yourself. know that none of it was your fault. second thing, is to seek out professional help if you wish. it's best to open up about something like this with someone who can refer help to you that will get your life back on track from how it's been affected. i'm really glad you're on this site!

I was sexually abused as a child for a few Years and I have struggled with ptsd ever since I had nightmares and often was afraid of being touched it even affected my romantic relationships as well as family ones I didnt like hugs from them because the person who sexually abused me was a close family friend and it just felt like the same thing all over again even though I knew it wasn't well the ptsd symptoms had eased up until this summer when I was at a party and I was pretty intoxicated some guy led me outside and had sex with me I didn't want to have sex with him I was dating the host of the party I remember him leading me outside I dont remember him initiating sex so I'm not sure if I consented or not but I remember not wanting to have sex with anybody but the guy I was dating I came to during the sex I was confused we were outside on a car and I didn't know what was going on and I was scared and nobody was there to help me I told him it didn't feel good and I wanted to stop he kept going and I told him no really stop he didnt listen I had to say it a few times before I just kind of got up and started to go back inside I was shaking I'm not sure if that qualifies as a sexual assault but it has made my ptsd resurface I am having nightmares again and feel alone and like nobody is going to come to my aid when I'm in trouble I hate being left alone now

Just wanted to get that off my chest if anybody else is having similar issues itd be cool to talk with you

Wel i was nt xactly raped bt Wen i was a kid around 3-4 grade ... There was one of my relative uncle who came to me wen i was sleeping and strted rubbing his penis wid my hands.. He thought i was sleeping bt i jst pretended dat i ws sleeping... I wanted to shout out but I thought may b its jst a dream or idk i jst couldnt undrstnd at that point of time As i woke up i washed my hands and wantd to tel evrybdy bt i jst couldnt I thought that evryone might scold me wt rubbish m i saying.... And now its been so long dat even if i wntd to tell someone i guess they wont believe and plus i dont evn have that courage to tell them . i jst wntd to get rid off this feeling.. And i think because of this i cannot feel for anyone.. I dont get that lovy dovy feeling for anyone i thnk evryone if ovr your body ... M so comfused I really dnt undrstnd wt to do ... :(