My story trigger warning

So I'm not sure where to start. I was sexually abused by my babysitter at an early age and then later her son. I remember thinking she was the only one that loved me. My view of love got screwed up. Her son and I were best friends, we were the same age. He ended up raping me. I have major trust issues. I still have trouble sleeping and being touched. I got married because it was expected of me. I told my ex husband about the rape and he still pressured me for sex all the time. We got divorced. I have a daughter and she is the best part of my life. I spent too many years trying to make my marriage work and it wasn't fair to either of us. I'm not sure what I hope to accomplish by sharing my story. I just needed to get it out. I have only told my therapist the whole story. It's been a long time and I think I am ready to try and get on with my life. They have. Thanks for listening.