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crimsonLime6525 June 4th, 2018

Today has been a really rough day, finally submitted my first thread on here and ended up having a full blown anxiety attack at the thought of what I had just done, even now after many hours I still have a tightness in my chest and pain in my shoulder.

Im really scared as I am about to face demons which have been locked away for a long time and I know it

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Wondrous June 4th, 2018

@crimsonLime6525 Everything is going to okay, even in the darkness days, you're gonna be okay. I usually repeat this quote in my head, "Don't get lost in this world." It seems to help me more and more. :)

YoYoDa June 4th, 2018

@crimsonLime6525 I know just how you feel, opening this up can be difficult. I'm new to all of this and it's not easy, but I know it's for the best for us all. Don't loose hope. Keep breathing and things will turn out ok.

crimsonLime6525 OP June 4th, 2018

Another long sleepless night, what will today bring????? Judging from the pains in my chest more of the same as yesterday. I

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YoYoDa June 4th, 2018

@crimsonLime6525

That's ok. Long sleepless nights full of anxiety are times to do all that needed deep thinking. Do you journal? Youre tryiing to tell yourself something... and sometimes its hard to listen to ourselves in the moment.

Maybe try getting up for early morning walks (That's how I do it) you'd be surprised how easy it is to sleep after a long walk at 4 or 5am.

Also, my advice would be to try drinking lots of water and healthy foods. Take a nice hot shower in the middle of the night. Treat yourself with kindness and self love.

You're ok, embrace this opportunity. Today is the day you overcome a sleepless night by simply letting it be what it is. Let the sum come up, be greatful, and life will be lived.

:)

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crimsonLime6525 OP June 5th, 2018

Its 3.10am and Im still wide awake, got to be up for work in an hour and a half so think its another night without sleep. I wish there was a way to turn my mind off for even just a short while to sleep as I am soooooooo tired, just feel totally drained, physically and emotionally. Maybe I should just try to stuff everything back in its box and screw the lid on so tight, dont know if I can do this

crimsonLime6525 OP June 5th, 2018

Why does it hurt so much????

crimsonLime6525 OP June 6th, 2018

There are so many thoughts running around in my head right now and so much hurting in my heart, I know I need to talk to someone but really don

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YoYoDa June 6th, 2018

@crimsonLime6525

What are your thoughts that are bothering you? I'm really sorry to hear your struggle, I have similar nights.

...not sure what to say, but I can listen.

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crimsonLime6525 OP June 8th, 2018

Feeling quite emotional today, would be my brothers birthday and it

crimsonLime6525 OP June 11th, 2018

I have nothing left to give....

RaspberryCup8692 June 11th, 2018

I don't know what you're going through, but you don't always have to give - it's okay to just be. It sounds like for now just being is a good goal. Whether you have to be that way for an hour or three days, or longer, hang in there. You'll come through this.

crimsonLime6525 OP June 12th, 2018

Enveloped in darkness.......lost........scared.......hurting......

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indigoBeing9907 June 15th, 2018

@crimsonLime6525

Hope some of those feelings have lifted and this message find you feeling a bit better ❤

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crimsonLime6525 OP June 16th, 2018

@indigoBeing9907 trapped in a very dark place and don

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indigoBeing9907 June 16th, 2018

@crimsonLime6525

*safe hugs* only if they are wanted.

Sounds like your in alot pf pain right mow and when you say your trapped that makes it spund like your feeling pretty hopeless and possibly scared?

I wonder have you any support arpund at this tough tome or is there anyone you can reach out to?

Have you been able to sleep?

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crimsonLime6525 OP June 16th, 2018

@indigoBeing9907 I will gladly accept the hugs and no I don

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indigoBeing9907 June 16th, 2018

@crimsonLime6525

Its so hard going through such a tough time with out support in your everdaylife but im glad you here reaching out ❤

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