My brother verbally abused me
When I was seven years old, my parents separated because my mom was having an affair. She moved out. My dad travels for work and my older sister has a job, so my older brother (who was 12 at the time) was tasked with watching me.
He did not like this. He was angry about the separation and desperately needed anger management classes but never received them. Due to this, he took it out on me.
He called me fat, ugly, a loser, and a loner. He told me that I had no friends and that I didn't belong to the family because I was so fat and ugly. At the time, I had began stress eating and indeed gained weight without anyone to make sure I was eating right. I have the stretch marks to prove it.
I would lock myself in my room while he pounded on the door telling me to get out. He would threaten to hurt me, and sometimes he did. Telling my parents would get him punished, but afterwards, he would have to watch me again and be even more angry. I looked forward to school because it meant I could get away from him. This went on for years until I was finally old enough to watch myself.
Now, I am 18. I don't really blame my brother for anything because I know he needed help but never got it. He is better now. I usually block most of my childhood out. However, now I have severe social anxiety. I have image problems. I think that no one would ever want to go out with me. I always think people are laughing at me behind my back.
I am being suffocated in my own worries and fears.
