Just stuff...I guess
I came here to get help with my issues with stuff. This site has been very helpful for that. There's only one issue that still remains even now. I can't go forward in the intimacy that my partner wants. I want to, kind of, but I fear that. I have these fears that he will abandon me after he gets what he wants because people do that, I fear that I will push myself too far again for I did that once, but I didn't understand what I had done then I thought everything was fine, and I fear basic things like becoming pregnant or whatever. lol Uh anyway...everything else is great...haha.
@FangsInsanity
Remember you have control over the situation. You're able to say yes and no. Also you've went through alot so you'll know if someone will hurt you, so believe in yourself. Try to not panic and think rationally.
Also if it helps tell your partner you want to do things at your own pace, aka if you feel unconfortable you can say "no" and things will stop. And if you say "I like this" or "I like that" the person can take note so they'll know how to act.
Is 100% possible to have intimicy again is just a matter of ALOT of comunication between you and your partner and putting boundaries.
Best of luck.