Improvements....but they hurt

My dad is gone. I blocked him. I'm gonna try and stay away from him. And that side of the family. My 16th is coming up and I dont want any of my dads side of the family to be there.. ..or my moms side. Only my brothers and my gma (moms side). I just stayed up talking to my (adopted) mom all night talking about everything.... it's all off my chest. Recently my uncle pulled me down to his lap with I went to hug him and when I got up ....he pulled me back down. And melissa his gf was sitting right there saw it all. And just was smiling and sitting there. While he drunckly was talking to me. Then when I got up he tired to come but me again and I backed away and he got closer and I pushed him away and said NO *insert name* I told all my family about it. Them all. Bc they are all chomos. Literally. Besides two of my uncles. On my dad side. Anyways. Now that it's out there I can starting the healing process. I've had grief. Anger. Way to many sleepless night. No sleep. To much sleep. Hatreddddd. So much more. But....its all good. My anxiety is really really high right now. But I'm gonna work on school and get back to normal.