Im out of my mind
you waste all this time trying to understand me.. trying to get me to understand me.. I.. i dont know how to do anything.. today..is not my day.
Its okay @MalloryTayce.. there are times when we don't know how to do anything like as you say "today's not my day." But you will know when you are ready, and others will be here for you then, just as we are now.
@rozie I dont know if im the problem.. i fight like im defending that im right but ive always been the wrong one.. always been the one to blame .. its almost a joke. Im just in this constant swirling pool of bad luck.. its been 25 years of this.. this isnt fair anymore..
Oh @MalloryTayce i'm sorry to hear that you're the one that's wrong, the one to be blamed..so not surprising that you wonder if you're the problem. Families and others often look for someone to blame for what is not going right and this person can continue to be viewed like this,and identified as the problem. So it takes the focus off the real issues and leaves this "problem" person carrying the burden of it. I don't know whether this fits for you. But listening to you, I know that you fight it, and don't think its fair. ... that says you have the strength and courage to begin to change this view of your self for your self.. and I believe you can. So be encouraged and seek some help and support..here for you.
