Fear and support

The last month or two has really been triggering to me. I'm almost back to the anxiety and fear and depression in the aftermath that I worked so hard to escape. I feel alone a lot. I isolate more than I should. I'm just having a hard time. I try when I can push hard enough to reach out to my friends, my support, and here. But I feel like I'm wearing people down or I can't find what to say when I have their attn. it's not fair to keep doing this to them. Therapy is hard, but I keep going, hoping I'll have a day where I don't question life as much and stay in the negativity. I promised I'd fight, and Imdoing that.....Im just afraid of everything that is going on inside me and afraid to turn and find no one is here.