Dilemas

But there's always a what if. What if things could be different. What if I can be happy. Only to be pained by the thought that they'll leave or I'll leave. I don't have that faith in myself to maintain a friendship much less a relationship. I'm too used to being alone but also feel so empty for being lonely. Hoping things will change, or if better I can change. I can be happy with the company of others and my own company. I can able to hold a decent conversation with people, adults, kids, peers alike. I really wish. I really do.