Did you have a sad childhood?

Most things about my childhood were sad. On the outside I was just like everybody else but inside I was crying. From my earliest childhood memories I remember being hit by one of my parents. I was sure they hated me. I was never hugged or kissed by any of them and they would yell at me a lot. When I was 8 I was abused by an older sibling and just found out that I was being watched by my older sister who was hiding in the closet. She could never stand me and I couldnt figure out why. I didnt tell my parents I was scared of them. At school I was constantly bullied. Nobody cared or stuck up for me. At age 13 a kid in my class hated me and she made it her mission to destroy every part of me. She embarrassed me before other kids on a daily basis. Today years later Im having terrible nightmares. She still shows up in my dreams and keeps mocking me. She never apologized. At age 15 I was abused by a stranger and again had no one I could tell