Attachment Trauma Triggers

hi.

i've never done anthing like this before. so here goes.

in april i survived a near-death experience that left me both physically and mentally traumatized. once the physical stuff healed, the emotional trauma became very apparent. the experience ripped open past traumas that i thought i had resolved. i started getting help, and it became clear that i have complex ptsd and attachment trauma. since november, it's been one hell of a bumpy ride. then, this week, my therapist abruptly closed her practice, the grandmother who helped raise me was diagnosed with brain cancer, and my girlfriend of 8 months abruptly broke up with me after getting a dog together 3 weeks ago. so... yeah. i'm not doing very well. very, very triggered. i feel so insanely alone. the thing with being queer is that your same sex girlfriend becomes your best friend at the same time. you don't just lose your girlfriend, you lose your best friend (and half of your wardrobe... lol). so i am devestatingly lonely. i drove to stay with my dad for some time, but he is leaving today to be with my grandmother. which means that i will be alone for the first time since this all happened 4 days ago. and i am terrified.