A strange idea
Hi there trauma family.
I wanted to share a strange thought I had about myself today because I wonder if I'm alone in what I went through or if others maybe did too.
Growing up, I had symptoms of schitzophrenia into my late teens. I saw bizarre things and heard voices almost constantly and genuinely believed them. This isn't your case of imaginary friends either, these were entities and loud whispers and shadows that threatened me or spoke to me or told me to put myself in danger. Some of these entities were nice though at times.
Later on, I went to therapy when most of the trauma had ended or gotten a little better and finished a year later--and so did the voices. Keep in mind I never brought them up to my therapist because I was scared of being diagnosed with it. Looking back now, I realize I didn't have DID but what if I had some kind of schitzophrenia as a result of trauma?
Am I just crazy? Or has anyone else experienced this too..?
@InsomniaMilk
It depends on the degree I think. So, I certainly remember as a child being terrified of shadows, and beasts under the bed at bedtime. And I remember a face on the wall talking silently to me, which with my adult head on I'm pretty sure was the shadow of a tree outside moving in the wind.
But psychotic visions like in the film "a beautiful mind" I have not had.
But then I haven't lived through sustained trauma either. I do know that the stresses and traumas of war, for instance, can precipitate psychotic episodes in a perfectly healthy adult, and I'm wondering if the traumas you mentioned were the cause , rather than any more long-lasting malfunction of your brain.
How does that fit?
