Why does life suck
Hey yall, it's been a couple months since I've been on here but here I am. I am at an incredibly low point in life rn and I honestly I'm crazy numb. I feel absolutely lost in my life
It all started about a month ago. Me and my mom were supposed to move. Bear in mine were at poverty line and my mom is on disability so we couldn't do it on our own. A family friend was supposed to help, but they ditched us. So we are still here, which has brought me down. We live in the slums, and even though it's nice house, in reality we live in a 2 room partment, wit ductape in the kitchen and mold and stuff everywhere. I feel like a bum, because it was so hard for me to deal wit a job. I got a job dis summer cuz (which that itself drained me, camp counseling 8 year olds) I thought we would be able to move, and I would have my own spending money lol but now that they ignored us I have to spend it on new school supplies takeouts food and other stuff. Not to mention even if we had the money, my mom is mentally and physically broken almost so she doesn't even have the strength. Whenever she trys to get me something wit her money I tell her to stop because I dont wanna take nothin feom nobody anymore. I am also thinking about trauma from my past, when I was much younger. I'm not happy, I don't smile anymore, and my resort to being happy is getting mad high.
Wat do I do now. I want someone who had actually has experience wit what I'm talking about
Whoever read this till the end, much love to you 🙏
@TheBOTE12907
That sounds really rough, I'm sorry to hear you're going through that. It seems like you got handed a lot of responsibility, even taking on a job and then ending up using the money for school supplies and food. I would honestly be feeling incredibly worn down after all of that.
Processing trauma from when you were younger just adds another layer. I have a lot of trauma in my past as well, but working through it takes a ton of strength and energy. If I'm not up to the task, I just end up feeling pretty negative when I try.
I just hope you're able to find a better living situation before long and your circumstances start to improve. Also sending good vibes to you and hoping you're able to get some rest.
@Percy9
Yea lol me and my mom got her car fixed and cleaned up to new for the first time since I was a baby 😅 so she's happy quite a bit, which is important, cuz she needs dat to heal. I didn't think anyone was gonna even respond to this lol and yes Im very worn out but in the cirumstances where im at you either gonna push through or your gonna lose yr mind. Thank you Percy 😇
