TW The Trap Was intriguing to me and exciting as a child

@creativeStrings1531 wow! That's terrible your own mum trying to kidnap you 😞 in glad your hero/babysitters husband was there to protect you and your brother ❤ did you live with your dad after that?? Did you have a good childhood with him ? 

Yes my brother and I did live with my dad

@TinyWisper

Yes my brother and I did live with my dad

@TinyWhisper11

Yes my brother and I did leave with my dad

But the whole event was exciting to me I practice to this day standing against my front door and skipping around the outside of my car as if I'm going through with trapping my mom

@creativeStrings1531 was he a good dad? Did you hear from your mum after that day? It must be so hard for you trying to get ready for it you ever need that (I mean by skipping around the car and practicing to block the door) 😥 trauma really sucks doesn't it! I hope therapy is helping you ❤

Doesn't seem hard I would be ready to go through trapping mom if it came down to it I would be very ready and I would be willing to go to jail for it I've even told my therapist that I'd rather go to jail than to go to a hospital I feel much better off going to jail then going to a hospital

I think I would be very excited to hear her say and dinky dinky let me go if she and I were skipping around the outside with your car

@creativeStrings1531 let's hope it never comes to that situation ❤gives you a giant tiny hug

Well I practice for it just in case and I have threatened her in the past which I have told my therapist

@TinyWhisper11

I have told my therapist that I have thought about turning myself in to the police before I could go through with trapping my mom

@creativeStrings1531 do you have theese thoughts of actually putting your mum in that situation?? Or is it just prepared thoughts, for it it ever does happen?

@TinyWhisper11

There are times that I've actually thought that I wanted to go through with it in real time and that is the part that scares me and makes me think about turning myself in before I could go through with it

@creativeStrings1531 ok they are just thoughts for now. Let's just wait and see if therapy can help you first. Turning yourself in will be when theese thoughts become more intense. Let's hope it never goes that far. Gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤squeezes you tightly

@TinyWhisper11

There is a lot that I thought about when I'm talking about trapping my mom I know the type of clothing that I would wear I know that I'd wear my female cheerleaders uniform and that's probably what I'd wear to trun myself into the police which they would probably take his evidence because it's it is when I wear to practice in

@creativeStrings1531 ok if you've actually planned, and there is a good chance you are going to do this. Perhaps you could turn yourself in, or instead go to a mental hospital were your safe and they can help you work through this

@TinyWhisper11

The mental health world messed me up in the past I had been put on so many drugs that it caused me to get type 2 diabetes so that's why I feel more comfortable going to jail and going to a mental hospital

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Which I have told my therapist the same thing that I'd feel more comfortable going to jail than I would going to a mental hospital because getting diabetes because of the medications that I was prescribed in the past

@creativeStrings1531 oh wow! I knew meds had side effects, but never really looked into it. I didn't realise meds could cause such a severe illness, that's really bad. I completely understand your choice that jail would be better for you, even though it's a very sad thought. I wouldn't want to see a nice person like you go to jail, because of your mother😥 I'm glad you reached out here, maybe, hopefully you will get the right support between 7 cups and your therapist, and everything will be ok. I really hope and pray tha that will happen for you ❤ how are you doing today? Do you live with your family?

@TinyWhisper11

Thanks for talking to me I stay alone but I have a girlfriend and she will be moving in with me April of 2025

@creativeStrings1531 ooo! That's exciting you'll be living together in under a year ❤ excited or scary?? I like talking to you ❤ ok so a girlfriend a therapist and 7 cups, that's a good support team. Your gonna be ok, cause you have a good heart ❤ and noone can keep a good person down. So do you get to socialise much?? Or hobbies??

@TinyWhisper11

Well my girlfriend doesn't comprehend to much because she has a learning disability but I have told her what happened to my mom and that I dress up a practice trapping my mom she didn't find it weird though when I told her that I dress up in a female cheerleaders uniform when I practice

@creativeStrings1531 awww bless her ❤ she didn't find it wierd, cause it's not wierd. It's all trauma related, and that's what your brain tells you to do, it's your self defence kicking in. So no it's not wierd, we all react to trauma in different ways. ❤ do you have a good relationship with your brother? Now your both grown up?

@TinyWisper11

I don't have a good relationship with my brother and I feel by wearing the female cheerleaders uniform that I would have more power and control over my mom as I am standing against the front door blocking it on her and saying my taunting cheer to her of dinky dinky you stinky doubt it out I am not going to let you out

@creativeStrings1531 I understand how deeply you were effected by your mother's actions. I really hope therapy will help you. Me I've gone the other way with trauma, for some reason I don't feel anger, or want revenge in any way. It's really strange how everyone s brains work in different ways. But I think your doing very very well, reaching out for help and support ❤ hugs you tightly ❤

@TinyWhisper

That is interesting

@TinyWhisper11

For some reason I feel that revenge would bring me joy, pleasure and excitement I don't feel like I would have any kind of remorse

@creativeStrings1531 I understand where your coming from ❤ it's kinda strange, you clearly have so much love in you. Yet your mother really got to you. Well honey if you don't get to punish her, then karma will. And God will too. For me I guess I'm just grateful my bad life is behind me, and I'm still alive. So I now see the good in people. I don't think therapy and support, will change your mind about your mum, and that's a good thing, not everyone should be figiven. But I hope they can work out a way to keep you living your life ❤ 

@TinyWhisper11

I will never forgive my dinky dinky stinky mom if I end up rotting in a jail cell for awhile I still won't have forgiveness

@TinyWhisper11

I have been in trouble before or I've had dealt with law enforcement before because people thought that I was really going to act on trapping my mom but dealing with law enforcement didn't scare me for some reason reason

@TinyWhisper11

I was hoping in the past that when I dealt with law enforcement that I would have been arrested and that she would have tired to visit me in jail because during my visit I could see me saying dinky dinky you stinky to her

@creativeStrings1531 I'm not exactly sure, how law and arresting people on this sort of situation. I'm glad you weren't arrested though, I'm glad your still out there living your life, the best you can ❤

@TinyWhisper11

Like I said law enforcement didn't scare me and the thought of going to jail doesn't scare me for some reason I proud to rot in jail

@creativeStrings1531 I would not survive jail, is be way to scated. Your braver than me that's for sure ❤

@TinyWhisper11

Yes I am brave and I'm strong I've worked for jail before I worked in food service in a so I understand going through doors that slam on your way through and knowing that feeling of being there they are humans they just made mistake

@creativeStrings1531 yeah, a lot of them did just make mistakes. But not all some are there for good reason

@TinyWhisper11

I noticed though when working in the jail kitchen that men will climb the walls when they see a woman through the glass lifting her jumpsuit top to show her *** so a couple of women do that when I was working at the jail kitchen

Unfortunately I had to stop going to therapy

@TinyWhisper11

I had to stop going to see a therapist and I still keep up my practice between standing against my front door and skipping around the outside of my car the urge is so strong to defend myself and to trap my mom if it came to that

I did my practice routine and it felt good to do that last night