TW The Trap Was intriguing to me and exciting as a child
As a child at the age of five my mom was trapped by a babysitter's husband during her divorce to my dad at the babysitter's house she showed up unannounced to try to kidnap my brother and I from the babysitter's house so the babysitter's husband stood against the front door preventing her from taking my brother and I have the front door she escaped with us to her Vega her blue two door Vega where she put my brother and I in the back seat of the car after she had us in the backseat of the car my mom and the babysitter's husband began to skip around her car and when she was skipping I heard her say dinky dinky this is stinky let me go she kept on saying that for about 5 until they got into the car and got into a fight the babysitter's husband threatened to break up my mom's arms if she did not get her car keys to him and my mom told him not to fart in her car and got out and started skipping around the car again until my dad showed up I gained a hero and role model that day because my mom wasn't supposed to be there and I used to play with the babysitters kids her son and her daughter the babysitter's husband will always be my hero and role model I have ended up practicing all the moves by standing against the door and skipping around my own car I practice because I have hatred toward my mom still to this day I see a therapist because of this situation
@creativeStrings1531 wow! That's terrible your own mum trying to kidnap you 😞 in glad your hero/babysitters husband was there to protect you and your brother ❤ did you live with your dad after that?? Did you have a good childhood with him ?
@TinyWhisper11
Yes my brother and I did leave with my dad
But the whole event was exciting to me I practice to this day standing against my front door and skipping around the outside of my car as if I'm going through with trapping my mom
@creativeStrings1531 was he a good dad? Did you hear from your mum after that day? It must be so hard for you trying to get ready for it you ever need that (I mean by skipping around the car and practicing to block the door) 😥 trauma really sucks doesn't it! I hope therapy is helping you ❤
Doesn't seem hard I would be ready to go through trapping mom if it came down to it I would be very ready and I would be willing to go to jail for it I've even told my therapist that I'd rather go to jail than to go to a hospital I feel much better off going to jail then going to a hospital
@TinyWhisper11
I have told my therapist that I have thought about turning myself in to the police before I could go through with trapping my mom
@creativeStrings1531 do you have theese thoughts of actually putting your mum in that situation?? Or is it just prepared thoughts, for it it ever does happen?
@TinyWhisper11
There are times that I've actually thought that I wanted to go through with it in real time and that is the part that scares me and makes me think about turning myself in before I could go through with it
@creativeStrings1531 ok they are just thoughts for now. Let's just wait and see if therapy can help you first. Turning yourself in will be when theese thoughts become more intense. Let's hope it never goes that far. Gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤squeezes you tightly
@TinyWhisper11
There is a lot that I thought about when I'm talking about trapping my mom I know the type of clothing that I would wear I know that I'd wear my female cheerleaders uniform and that's probably what I'd wear to trun myself into the police which they would probably take his evidence because it's it is when I wear to practice in
@creativeStrings1531 ok if you've actually planned, and there is a good chance you are going to do this. Perhaps you could turn yourself in, or instead go to a mental hospital were your safe and they can help you work through this
@TinyWhisper11
The mental health world messed me up in the past I had been put on so many drugs that it caused me to get type 2 diabetes so that's why I feel more comfortable going to jail and going to a mental hospital
@TinyWhisper11
Which I have told my therapist the same thing that I'd feel more comfortable going to jail than I would going to a mental hospital because getting diabetes because of the medications that I was prescribed in the past
@creativeStrings1531 oh wow! I knew meds had side effects, but never really looked into it. I didn't realise meds could cause such a severe illness, that's really bad. I completely understand your choice that jail would be better for you, even though it's a very sad thought. I wouldn't want to see a nice person like you go to jail, because of your mother😥 I'm glad you reached out here, maybe, hopefully you will get the right support between 7 cups and your therapist, and everything will be ok. I really hope and pray tha that will happen for you ❤ how are you doing today? Do you live with your family?
@TinyWhisper11
Thanks for talking to me I stay alone but I have a girlfriend and she will be moving in with me April of 2025
@creativeStrings1531 ooo! That's exciting you'll be living together in under a year ❤ excited or scary?? I like talking to you ❤ ok so a girlfriend a therapist and 7 cups, that's a good support team. Your gonna be ok, cause you have a good heart ❤ and noone can keep a good person down. So do you get to socialise much?? Or hobbies??
@TinyWhisper11
Well my girlfriend doesn't comprehend to much because she has a learning disability but I have told her what happened to my mom and that I dress up a practice trapping my mom she didn't find it weird though when I told her that I dress up in a female cheerleaders uniform when I practice
@creativeStrings1531 awww bless her ❤ she didn't find it wierd, cause it's not wierd. It's all trauma related, and that's what your brain tells you to do, it's your self defence kicking in. So no it's not wierd, we all react to trauma in different ways. ❤ do you have a good relationship with your brother? Now your both grown up?