Sexual assault

I need to know if I'm a bad person?

I was recently sexually assaulted by my father and I had a panic attack at a dance concert my friend brought her guy friend that she had a crush on who I didn't invite and she didn't tell me about it she's demanded it and it had been a month after my father sexually assaulted me and my friend knew about it and my dad hasn't gone to jail yet there's a trial and open investigation but I started having a panic attack around this guy that she liked I just don't feel comfortable around men anymore and my sister's boyfriend comes over to the house and I don't answer the door for him because I don't feel comfortable with men in my home who I don't really know other than my brothers am I a bad person if I tell my sister I don't want her boyfriend in the house