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friendlyShade2009
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PathStep 20 Compassion hearts71 Forum posts18 Forum upvotes33 Current upvotes33 Age GroupTeen Last activeOctober, 2024 Member sinceMarch 11, 2024
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I've dealt with depression I've dealt with abuse dealt with self harm and suicide and I feel like no one cares

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I'm tired
Depression Support / by friendlyShade2009
Last post
 October 11th
...See more The beginning of this year almost died from a seizure medical mistake and I was okay with the divorce last year from my parents and it keeps spreading this year I was tired of going back and forth and dealing with my abusive father and I've survived almost committing suicide over and over and over again I am so tired because if I go to a mental ward then the government owns me if I call CPS they'll never leave I don't know what to do I just want them to take away my father's rights to me so I can be free I'm tired I'm tired of feeling this way I'm tired of not remembering what happiness is I'm so tired and I can't remember the last time I was happy
no one see my pain
Trauma Support / by friendlyShade2009
Last post
 August 16th
...See more I have an appointment today and my mom was supposed to take me but we didn't have gas she had $2 in her account and she couldn't take me to my doctor's appointment I asked my father to take me to my appointment because my parents are divorced and we live separately asked my dad please can take me to my appointment he said no as soon as your mom and get on the phone and call me and ask me my mom told him that she will not be doing that and he hung up on me and called them again said hey are you picking me up to go to my appointment he told me no that he will not be doing that until my mom can pick up the phone and call him he hung up on me I slammed my phone on the floor when he hung up and started to cry I was in so much pain because my stomach was hurting and my head was hurting and I've had this for a while and I had a doctor's appointment that I needed to go to and no one was there for me I can't even go to a doctor's appointment without having them fight for 5 seconds I can't go to the doctor's appointment because my parents can't get it together I can't go to a doctor's appointment because my dad is a narcissist I can't go and it's physically hurting you now not only did they hurt me mentally but now it is physically hurting me and I have no one to take me so now I'm sitting in my room and writing the same crying
Asperger's
Autism Support / by friendlyShade2009
Last post
 August 24th
...See more I'm imagining myself getting told that I have Asperger's by doctor I tested high on an online quiz that was recommended from doctors for me to take it because the way I was was a little kid apparently with symptoms for Asperger's I was scheduled test that will tell me if I have asked burgers or not at phoenix hospital I don't know what I want to do when I imagine myself getting told I've Asperger's I imagine myself breaking down crying and saying no you're lying this is obviously a fake test I imagine myself sitting in my room laying down doing anything but going out into this world when they tell me that I have Asperger's I took in the recommended test six times now the online one just to make sure that I don't have it I said no let me take it again no let me take it again I took it six times that night 16 this week I don't know who I am I'm thinking to myself I'm the way I am because of Asperger's I don't have a personality my mind is controlled by Asperger's I used to feel bad for people that had autism cuz I never knew what it was like I just thought that made you think like a little kid and your brain just didn't develop right that's what I used to think I used to feel bad for those people but if I actually have it I think I might have a mental breakdown I think I might actually have a mental breakdown and I'm not even joking I cry every time I think about even having Asperger's I don't know what to say because I felt bad for people that have autism but I'm sorry I don't want to be on your spectrum I was smart I went through school so easily I got good grades I read so fast in my mind and it was so easy for me but the fact that I could be even on the spectrum makes me cry a little and I'm sorry if that offends you but I just can't do it you have to understand I'm 15 years old I'm barely getting through life I have too much to deal with I can't deal with this too I'm not joking I might have a mental breakdown and I don't know what to do
Move on
Grief & Loss / by friendlyShade2009
Last post
 July 27th
...See more We lose that one person in our lives that just changes our entire lives that rearranges our entire lives we get to grieve for 5 seconds their lives or sometimes they're not even allowed to show it or sometimes we don't want to show it because I feel like that unmasked us and it shows our emotions and it shows different side of us and I don't think that we should we get 5 seconds to grieve and then everybody's like oh my God I can't believe this person is still talking about this person's death and it's not fair we get 5 seconds to grieve and then we have to move on that's all people expect from us like well that person died move on with your life and it's not fair it's not fair at all how are we supposed to grieve when people are telling us to move on.
Hear me
Grief & Loss / by friendlyShade2009
Last post
 July 31st
...See more I had some die recently near my birthday and did not know that they were hurting with pain.
I have been feeling trapped
Depression Support / by friendlyShade2009
Last post
 July 5th
...See more My sister is 17 now and I'm 15 my sister and me are 2 years apart my sister always tells me I am just a kid and that I should not be dating anyone. I dated people before she got her first boyfriend her first boyfriend ruined my life he took her away from the house and away from the family I had no idea what day her graduation was for high school it was so random. My sister and I had the same curfew at 9:00 pm now her curfew is midnight and mine is still 9 pm. My sister is the older girl and my mom was the older girl in her family so when I asked her about the curfew she told me we were at different parts of our lives I got so mad I was tired of no one understanding what I was going through. I miss when I was younger and my sister and I would talk and laugh and play with dolls with her I miss my nice sweet big sister
Inside out 2
Anxiety Support / by friendlyShade2009
Last post
 July 4th
...See more I don't know if anyone else felt a bad feeling watching this but I did I was a little kid when inside out first came out when inside out 2 came out she grew up I grew up to with her watching what she was going through was scary I cried I will never watch that movie again I hated every part of that movie I hate the way it made me have anxiety the whole time I probably will cry if I watch that movie again
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