Need Partner/Listener / Mental Health supporter

I'm poor in English.

But i hope the correct souls will understand.

I'm a 21 year old boy from India, Kerala.

I can't complete my higher studies but I'm worked at some advertising spaces.But lost it also. I'm a aspiring film maker in Malayalam and aspiring author of books.

I have no parents or house.

Parents are divorced and no connection with me.

I'm facing threads, murder attempts and I'm tried sometimes to suicide.

Also faced many health diseases, attacks from nature, wild animals, religious and caste discriminations etc.

I'm a sexual abuse survivor from one more peoples in many times cruely.

Diagnosed PTSD, Depression, Panick attacks, Halusinations, Nightmares etc.

And feeling sexual and physical issues allover the body.

Now I'm in rest beacuse of a accident and try to recover. My leg is not active and internally multiple injured.

I'm alone. Now I'm stay at married elder sister's house for the recovery period.

After that I'm alone again.

And I'm trying for a job and personal room for living.

Now I'm survived by Reading, Writing, Cinema and writing works for Shortfilms, books etc.

And safe and secured by the Almighty Jesus.

This message is just a word about me.

I hope you will understand my deep pains and struggles.

I need a partner/Listener/soulmate.