Hi! How do you process emotional problems relating to sexuality?

I can't process a lot of things and it feels icky and overwhelming as ***. I want to cut my genitals, I am more horrified than you could actually imagine about o'sms. I'm not sure how to seek help or what to ask.

Please find advice to help. I'm not sure how to navigate anything of it, it's 1.5 decades of completely *** obsession hurting myself I'm beyond ***, help.

Just started trying to reach professional help just might want to ask advice in the meantime since every single functions or emotion or sensation have arrays of horrors attached to them cognitively. Help please it's been *** *** and I've been obsessing on healing with all the resources in the world for 5 years in isolation to no avail. *** find something I can't find anything that won't take me years help.

It's assured at least for a few years recovery just help me have a clue it's *** ***. I'll find anything to remove my genitals once I've the movie regardless just *** find me a clue if you have any it's *** since horror comes back perpetually and autonomously.